Its been a while since i last wrote here. things have changed. a lot
so what does full time work mean to me? i wish i knew. right now, it seems like i'm being treated pretty well by a company that wants me to develop my potential, pay me a good salary and to enjoy it all in the process. so far, i've thoroughly enjoyed getting to know the rest of the new starts, made some friends and its been pretty nice staying in a brand new hotel with all expenses paid. but...for anyone who knows me, they'll know i'm not all that excited by the prospect of full time work. the main question is whether God has placed me there. or whether my call is somewhere else.
God is faithful in giving us confirmations that we are doing what we intended us to do. for me, for a long time in my faith i needed to have utmost certainty that what i was doing, is what God wanted for me. then this summer happened. there's so much i could talk about, but since working one thing has hit me. i don't need to get a 100% confirmation to do something. thats where faith comes in, in part. "would you believe me, if i said, that we don't need to wait for the answers before we step out in faith" is a line from a Hillsongs song. so, during the summer, i realised this. i tried to plan so much, in my teams we tried to plan things, but then God just comes in and 'messes things up'. its an awesome feeling to let go off our plans, and let God take over. 1 Corinthians 1:25 says "For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom" thats been my experience. when i think i'm being wise, whether it be planning for my future, or planning stuff for my teams, whatever i think is smart, or wise, or makes sense to me...is just foolish in God's eyes. it doesn't mean that God doesn't want us to make plans...or that He doesn't care...but He wants us to consult Him and listen....listen for His guidance.
I guess what I've found out is that God will open a door and we need to have the faith to walk into it. doors shut for me, and a door opened with a job offer. so i walked in that door, to E&Y, and i'm pretty glad i did. so far i've found 2 christians guys, which is a massive answer to prayer! another point is that people are perfectly happy with my views on Alcohol etc. so i feel really relaxed there already, which is excellent...and that relaxed feeling, along with a slight understanding of what i'll be doing for the next 40 years and a clear opportunity to 'be Jesus' to a lot of people...is making it clear that this job is where God wants me. like my friend Alastair told me...we're not here to sell but to bless. revolutionary words...christians need to stop trying to selling the Gospel, but to bless people.
i've been reading 2 books recently...Blue like Jazz and Irresistable Revolution. fantastic books! so simple to read but so hard to apply, they're not the kinda books to read and say "that was nice"...but they demand a response. i'm only starting to work on how i'll respond.
i hope i'll remember to write more to this blog...i don't think many people read this at all, but its good to share my thoughts.
so whats the craic now...well 2 of my uni mates are now moving to work in dublin, which will be different as i'm used to be seeing them a few times a week. but E&Y seem to like to send us down to Dublin a lot, so that'll be cool to be able to catch up with them. Work will be a much different experience to Uni. no days off, no lie-in's, no 1 hour days. but i'm truely excited(and this may make me sound like a loser)...by the prospect of work. i've seen God doing some unreal things over the past summer...and i'm expectant, and in prayer, that He'll do more awesome things in a 'normal job'. bring it on!
